Well, I, like most of the known universe, did not win the gigantic Powerball jackpot last Wednesday and I still have to work, but I think that’s OK. I still won at life because I made it through the day. I’m serious about this.
Life is hard – exceptionally so at times – and, any day a person fails to give up, fall down upon his (or her) face, and scream “I give up!” is a win. I know I post a lot of sad stuff on this blog and that’s reasonable and to be expected because sadness makes up a lot of what I feel these days. Life is not all “blue skies and rainbows.” Still, I need you to know that I am not defeated. I may be down, but I refuse to be counted out! Like a boxer who has taken too many shots to the head, I may have to grab on to the ropes for stability, but I will still make my way back to my feet.
Yes, I still have many issues. The largest of which is the fact that I still miss my Cindy so much that I can hardly stand it. I still don’t sleep at the right times (as proven by the fact that I’m writing this article at 1:22 a.m. on a workday morning) and I’m still not to sure of my relationship with God right now, but I’m still winning. Every day that I don’t give up and just say “to hell with all of it,” I’m winning!
So, please forgive the negative or sad tone that may often permeate this site and know that sadness is the most prevalent emotion I feel these days, but it certainly isn’t the only one. I’ll try to show more of the other emotions in my posts, but my first priority is to “keep it real.” After all, this blog is cheap therapy for me and it may serve to help someone else who is walking the same rough road and I don’t want to present a false picture of what I’m dealing with.
So, while I may be struggling every day, I’m confident that I am also winning each and every day and that is what counts most.