(Editor’s Note: Well, it certainly didn’t take me long to miss a day on my “post-a-day” posting schedule. Perhaps this article will explain why.)
There are lots of physical and emotional changes I went through when Cindy passed away. One of the earliest and easiest to recognize was a distinct change in my sleeping pattern. When I was supposed to be asleep, I was wide awake and, conversely, when I was supposed to be productive, my body was doing its very best to sleep. There was no rhyme or reason for it. Worst of all, it’s still going on.
Since last August, there have been many times when I’ve stayed up all night only to try to fall asleep at my desk or I’ve run myself to the brink of exhaustion only to fall asleep in my recliner and never make it to my bedroom. It’s not like I’m not trying to get back on a normal sleeping schedule, it’s just easier said than done.
When Cindy first passed, I understood the “why” behind being awake at odd hours. The hurt was fresh and new and the shock was evident. Now, over five months later, the symptoms have morphed and I’m not sure why. Is it depression? It certainly could be, but could there be more? It definitely warrants some additional investigation. I have a note to bring it up to my doctor in March if it continues until then.
For now, I am trying to keep it under control by doing the following:
- Cutting off caffeine after 4 p.m. I drink a lot of caffeine to keep me awake during the work day, but I cut it off and switch to water.
- Keeping a regular sleeping schedule, even on weekends. This one is harder to keep and I still find myself falling asleep in my chair, but I’m determined to do this. Sleeping two hours a night during the week, and 16 hours on weekends is not a good thing.
- Get away from electronic devices 30 minutes before bedtime. I spend that time with my cats. They relax me.
If you have any other tips that might help, please leave them in the comment section below. I would appreciate it.